November 13, 2008
Emotional Week
Well, this second half of the week has been quite emotional.
i dont know why but i just feel that my heart is not at rest.
i may look ok on the outside but inside.. there is alot happening and its hard to describe.
well, it may be because of school work. the stress is piling up.
and due to the exam dates i cant get from sch- cause the extended family wanted to go on a holiday to taiwan during the dec break. Some ppl keep pressing me for the dates when i dont have it. (Exam dates.!!! why would the lecturer release the dates to me just because i am going on a holiday?? and need to confirm when my papers will end?)
last night i was so frustrated that the whole house was so noisy..
i kept changing rooms to study in.
first i was at the study room.. ling, juan were studying there so i decided to go to the living room to study..
not before long, when i was doing my consumer banking HW, they came out and switched the TV on.. RAR!! well again, i have to change my study spot.
i chose my parents room.. at least i have 20min of silence and then.. the TV was turned off and the siblings came in to my parents room to sleep.. and YES THEY WERE MAKING NOISES!!
so i changed room again. i chose my room, which is shared with my younger sis.
i studied there for like 10-15 min and she told me to get out and wanted to sleep...
CAN YOU FEEL MY FRUSTRATION HERE??!!! I JUST WANT TO STUDY AND COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK!!!!!
i have no choice but to change room again.. there is the final room i've got.
my other siblings room. ( it was empty cause my younger siblings were sleeping @ my parents room. )
Peace @ last! i managed to finish 2 tutorials. with minor disturbances from my gonggong as he checks on me if i'm ok. =)
The whole frenzy was driving me up the wall... i was contemplating whether to study in the store room where nobody can disturb me. i can just put a wooden table there and lock the door. no noise..just me and my books.
Well, today was no quieter, but at least i was able to control my frustration.
the house was as noisy though.
i think it was due to the fact that there were no class today. only comm skills proj meeting.
@ 7.15 i went down to prayer walk. i met daniel ( maggie's husband) and together with ling we prayer walk- reason behind this was that today is Good Neighbours' day!!
we sang worship songs @ the void deck. nice. =)
then i went to play with a dog named Angel.
then home to do calculus and consumer banking PTN.
God help me!